Hijaab…nikaab…purda… I don’t have to cover my face its not farz…purda is in the heart not covering the face…that’s what they all say… and that’s what I too beleived at first…
My mum started wearing nikaab 15 years ago and at that time there were more and more woman donning the nikaab ! I felt really proud of her taking this big step but never told her my feeling even though I admired her courage..
I got married in 2008 and 1 of the perks of being a home exec was giving up my career of corporate banker after 12 years.It was quite an adjustment but I benefitted a lot alhamdulillah ,as I started attending deeni talks for ladies and had ample time to do all the hobbies and courses I couldn’t do whilst pursueing a career.
My husband was and still is a remarkable spouse who always encourages me to new spiritual heights without loosing the essence of ikhlaas or sincerity.He never expressed his wish to see me wear the nikaab but always explained the benefit and the virtues of it to me.
He is a student of deen and a popular leader of the community in a suburb situated within Johannesburg South.
I became very conscious of not wearing it and felt awkward and uncovered when ever we would frequent shopping malls or the local supermarket or bakery as everyone would stare at me and remark ” theres moulana and his new wife”, which at times resulted in me wearing a big pair of sunglasses to cover half my face!
My mum would constantly encourage me to wear the nikAab explaining how important it was to wear it as I was now a “moulanas” wife.
Yeah right forget about everyone else but what about my feeling and thoughts and ambitions !
Having always heard my father speak about his 4 months spent in 1975 ,I asked hubby if he would take me out for 3 days mastooraat jamaat just to experience what it was all about. Now when you leave you home as a couple you have to wear the nikaab till you get to the hosts place and then you have to wear it on your way back home too.
I wasn’t aware that I had to wear it and felt reluctant at first but wore it none the less.It felt good yet somewhat uncomfortable but I felt a sense of “completeness”- kind of like i wished I could always wear it so I secretly bought my first nikaab and started wearing it whenever I would leave home.Hubby didn’t notice.He probably thought it was just a passing phase.
After 2 weeks of wearing it all over he looked at me while driving to Lenz and asked me if the wearing of the purdah was going to be a permanent situation so I said it was a trial phase !!! What a lie because deep down I knew that this was such a great and noble step in my life and I was trying to make it a permanent one too.
Eventually he sat me down and explained to me that allah swt honours a women who wears the nikaab and told me how proud he was about me taking this step all on my own…subhanallah I felt so chuffed and was waiting for those wise words of approval ….
It is 5 years now since I donned the nikaab and yes …we only wear nikaab for allahs pleasure.. we are observing modesty and this too is ultimately for the pleasure of allah swt…a woman modestly dressed is like a pearl in an oyster..
They say allah honours a woman who wears the nikaab and yes I have witnessed being honoured on many occasions when non-muslim men come up to hubby and express that they too would love their wives covered up the way I do !
Only allah swt knows what’s in each persons heart and allah grant me the steadfastness to improve my akhlaaq and use me as a means of spreading this wonderfull concept of hijaab as well as the beautifull deen of Islam !
Alhamdulillah, we, in south africa are not restricted from practicing any avenue of deen compared to other countries where the hijab is banned, and because of this we have to take full advantage of practicing deen in totality.
Allah swt in his infinite wisdom has bestowed us with so many nemats and besides being the reciters of the kalima and the ummatees of Nabi Mohammed saw , allah swt has made us woman and have completed us by making modesty a branch of imaan…
It is not farz but waajib to cover the face as ulama explain that it is a protective measure in this time of fitnaa that we are living in where woman are exposed to many evils.
Purdah is not in the heart and if we wish to attain closeness to allah swt then we will obey his commands willingly or unwillingly ,ultimately for his pleasure, and allah swt will make it easy for us.
So to all my sisters who are still undecided on taking that great step forward- just take the plunge you will never regret it. Yes allah swt will honour you, he will make it easy for you and he will protect and elevate you….don’t look back !
Hijaab is my choice and my freedom and I am a proud Muslimah…..Allah hu Akbar !!